The journey from there to here
Published on September 13, 2007 By Gideon MacLeish In Misc

I have to admit, I've truly, genuinely, not been doing well.

I'm at the end of my rope, and everytime I think I'm done with this nasty little town, they throw something else at me. I look forward to the day I see this burg in my rear view mirror. And I've never ever felt this way about a city. Even Pahrump was one we left with some degree of sadness.

As I stated earlier, my faith is still strong, but my dogma's gone. I don't want to play Christian Crips n' Bloods anymore, the whole denominational thing doesn't honor God and it doesn't make me feel any better. And if being a Christian means being the kind of person I see in the churches, I want no part of it. I can be THAT kind of person without paying my dues every time the collection plate is passed.

I've self identified as a conservative Christian for many years, but I can't claim that anymore. I don't want to be the kind of person I see filling up those churches. If the Fruits of the Spirit are consistently absent in those churches, I think i can safely say they're not following God. I've questioned for years whether the church was apostate; now I'm becoming convinced it must be.

It's hard to realize so much of what you believe is wrong. I don't doubt God for a second. I KNOW who He is. But I'm beginning to suspect a lot of false advertising on the part of moneychangers who put up a shingle claiming to be Christian. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. All should be there, but they're not. What am I to conclude?

Oh, well, I'm rambling and meandering badly. Just wanted to drop a couple thoughts on what's going through the ol' noggin right now.

on Sep 13, 2007
Haha, well you know MY conclusion.

Sorry things are sucking for you. You need me to come over there and kick some ass? LOL.
on Sep 13, 2007
You have an effect man. Keep on rolling. You started the purge of that church, didn't you? They invited you back. Something had to have changed there. Doesn't mean go back, but at least you're making a difference. You showed me that the libertarian party could be a good idea, and you showed me that a third party in local government elections stands a chance, which may later affect my voting pattern, or my campaign/party choice if I decide to run for office someday.

You've been a bit grumpy, touchy, jumpy lately for sure, but you're a great resource for anything CPS related. You were one of the first writers I read consistently on JoeUser, and IIRC, one of two I went back and read articles from when I was not active to 'catch up.' The other one was Brad, by the way.

You're a great guy a lot of the time, and it sucks that people treat you like they have. I think the amount of persecution poured down on you is going to be in direct relation to what you can accomplish for good - if you weren't doing anything for good, Satan wouldn't need to attack you. And some of it is definitely demons.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is, by you producing fruits of the spirit, trees will be planted around you. More people will produce fruit. People who stopped producing fruit will get pruned and start producing again. You may never even see the effect, but I'm absolutely certain it's there. Never give up. You may be that town's last chance.
on Sep 13, 2007

You have an effect man.

it may not be "A Wonderful Life", but Jythier is right.  There will be a great hole in that town when you do leave.  But if it is your soul at stake, then you must do it for yourself and family.

on Sep 13, 2007
"I went down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees.
Down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees.
Asked the Lord above for mercy, "Save me if you please."

I went down to the crossroads, tried to flag a ride.
Down to the crossroads, tried to flag a ride.
Nobody seemed to know me, everybody passed me by.

You can run, you can run, tell my friend-boy, Willie Brown.
Run, you can run, tell my friend-boy, Willie Brown.
And I'm staying at the crossroads, believe I'm sinking down."


Feels appropriate to me.

And it is a Wonderful Life! Merry Christmas you old building and loan!
on Sep 15, 2007
Whatever you do, and I know it isn't easy for you not to, but don't let what a few people do, how they are, stop you from being who you are, loving your God and serving him. Sometimes those things are put in your face for a reason. Cryptic at best, and some might scoff, but you are doing what you're supposed to, don't stop!