The school year's almost up, and as much as I am exhausted, I am also exhilarated. I've proved something to myself, and, quite honestly, I've decided I enjoy being back in school.
And something dharma said hit me. As she is mulling going back to become a doctor, she mentioned that with all the years of schooling, she'll still be older, she'll just be older with a degree.
As I've thought long and hard about where I want to go from here, since I will have my associate's by the end of the year, I have thought back on the things I have a passion for. My faith and fighting for the things I feel are right.
The church has punched me so long, so hard, I don't see my future in ministry. While I still am devout in my faith, I'm sad to say I've given up on the church as an institution. You can only get kicked down so many times before you question whether you belong in the fight in the first place. I don't belong in this one, and so I surrender the church to its whitewashed tombs and will worship in my own way, far from the maddening crowd.
Which leaves the other option. I have decided that after I get my degree in Computer Technology in December, I'm going to work towards my bachelor's with the goal of going on to law school.
That's right, much as I detest them, I am going to work towards being a lawyer. I've been called a crusader in the past, and, frankly, I know a few people who could use a good crusader right about now.
I know it doesn't seem like we need more lawyers, but we sure do need a few more of the right ones, in my extremely arrogant, biased opinion. And the people I've spoken to tend to agree.
It's time for me to think about what to do with the next portion of my life. And this is what I really want to do.